idk what's wrong with me .
giving him attitude , ended up , he didnt send me home .
' dunno , see my mood lo . '
that's th last sentence he told me with regards to something .
i watched him walk away .
i feel like crying , i feel like slapping myself .
for behaving like a spoilt brat .
i love him , alot .
but idk how to express my feelings .
i need his hugs and kisses each day .
listening to his voice over th phone .
talking to him before i sleep .
guess tonight ,
there wont be any calls or texts .
after one tough day of work ,
finally get to spend some time with him ,
and i ruined it all .
thanks to myself .
i saw him being angry with me for once ,
for once he shown me his temper , his attitude .
im afraid , th last thing i want is him to flare up .
but im always doing stupid things each time .
go bang th wall bitch .
maybe i should .

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been quite long since i last update . hehe

watch Karate Kid @ Marina Square with baby .
quite a nice movie and it's worth th money .
2hours plus movie cost only 7.50 each . ^^
after th movie ,
went to walk around & had dinner @ Hotpot Culture .
damn full xD

went MPH to search for books till i wanna vomit le .
headed back Tamp .
walked to liang liang place & baby sent me home after that .

i love him, alot .
he's a good guy , i know .
jiu shi bcos he's that good , i dun think i deserve him .
he's my longest boyf , not counting that dog .
i find it a miracle that we can last for half a year .
idk what he sees in me .
our 3 year promise, im afraid im going to break it afterall .
letting go would be sad , and a torturous time for me .
bcos he made me feel pampered and loved which no one had given me before .
but , i think he deserve a better girl ,
and not be stuck with me .
i'll choose to let go , if that were his intentions as well .